I have social anxiety disorder which has greatly hindered my life. I want to break out but I feel that I just cannot do it. I fear going to social events such as parties because I am afraid people will judge me and I will be embarrassed, therefore I avoid social gatherings whenever possible. The downside is that I have no friends and am a male virgin in my 30′s which nobody can understand. I feel lonely and ashamed. I accepted the fact that my shyness is an inborn personality flaw that cannot be changed and the only thing to release me from it is death. Essentially, I have given up. As I have become more religious, I have stopped fearing my own death and have been looking forward to it, but I don’t want to answer to God for suicide. Is there anything that I can do to live a somewhat content life with this handicap until I die?

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